Went on a boat 2 hours ago. Storm came in, making the waves huge, and making me freak out..Ani loved it. Then we saw dolphins and Ani was reaalllyy happy, and when we docked there was a forest fire that had gone out of control, or so my dad said, and so we got swamped in smoke. When we docked and walked to the car it started pouring down rain on us and me and Ani got Mardi Gras necklaces from a mini parade at the dock~

Yesterday my mom pulled me aside and asked if I was gay. Since I really don’t consider myself gay, I truthfully said no, and didn’t feel bad over my answer. She then asked if me and Ani were dating, which I lied saying no. My mom didn’t seem angry but she seemed a bit hesitant and worried, though not like the idea was bad. I played everything off, talking about Robert Downey Jr. and how I think he’s absolutely gorgeous and stuff..Some people had asked my mom if me and Ani were gay. She wouldn’t say who asked, but I had an idea. It doesn’t offend me, since Ani and me were holding hands in the water and clinging to each other. We weren’t really hiding it, nor thinking about it. My mom really believed me saying that Ani and I were really close friends….Dunno how long that will last, since everyone is keeping a close eye on us. I know Ani isn’t really noticing, but I can feel my sister watching us like a hawk. Me and Ani have made a habit of kissing when we’re alone in the elevator. Sad thing is we’re only on the 3rd floor….

I feel so awkward in these swimsuits….I HAVE to lose this weight….its embarassing to think I’m as fat as a baby elephant while my girlfriend is skinny….she says I’m fine….but I don’t feel it….when I wear these swimsuits though around her…I don’t feel peoples stares. I only feel her looking at me, and I know she doesn’t see my fat; she says I look beautiful, and I know she completely means it. It makes me want to cry, because not many people do that.

I only swam for 2 hours before I had to get out from my face burning….we ate at a restaurant and my stomach is killing me….Ani and me ate too much ;-;